Hard to love

After a recent personality test, I’ve discovered that my Myers Briggs archetype is ENTJ (extroversion, intuition, thinking, judgement). It was hard to hear that my personality type has problems recognizing, utilizing a full emotion spectrum. That my opinionated, objective-seeking perspectives can be found as abrasive condescending. My Inner (lets be honest, exterior) drama queen was in full blown hysterics. How could such a simple concept be so illusive when my sub/un conscious mind should at the very least understand six basic emotions!! (Nerd Alert).

This new internal conflict was creating a narrative of shame and a tin man who was hard to love.

With the advocacy and current pushes for mental health initiatives, I’m trying to reduce these intrusive failure chronicle that needs a re-write to a story. Brush this shame off my shoulders.

Sainthood | Tegan and Sara

In the service of relationships we practice being perfect. We practice our sainthood in the hope that we will be rewarded with adoration. As we are driven to become anything for someone else, we sometimes become martyrs for our cause.

Love, like faith, can never be held in an individual’s hands. But the story of a great love affair – especially one that is unrequited or has ended too soon – can be woven like scripture or a bedtime story. And so the themes of Sainthood are tied together by this simple title, borrowed, with great respect, from the lyrics of the Leonard Cohen song “Came So Far for Beauty”:

I practised all my sainthood / I gave to one and all / But the rumours of my virtue / They moved her not at all.

– Tegan & Sara

Sheena’s Still Rocking | The Kids are Alright

Sheena’s Still Rocking.

It exists in the fray. Beyond the barriers of the confined reality. The chains you tie her to are dismantled as she rages against the dying of the night.

This; power you receive when you exist in the cracks. The sound goes clickity clack.

The percussion.
The vibration.
The rising crescendo.

More.
Faster. Harder.
Hit the snare.
Shred the guitar.
Harder still.

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